It feels bad and good. I had to do it. I couldn't stand it anymore. After I realized that the decision had to be made, it felt good. I'm finally taking my life back. I sent the email today. Almost immediately, I got emails back from people and I'm glad to call these people my friends. They made me feel a tremendous amount of support and I realized I made the right decision. For that, I owe them all a huge thank you!
I know that I made mistakes. I'm at the point of trying to learn from it and move on. I cannot dwell on the past; I cannot change it. So why waste the energy. Instead, I need to take back my future and my life. Today is the beginning of the rest of my life.